One Year Ago Today

Lair & I were blessed with a 7 lbs 9 oz baby boy. Today our little man is one! It is still really hard to grasp just how quickly time seems to have passed us by. We have had an incredible year watching Jonas grow.

Feliz Cumpleanos a Jonas

Why Is Abortion Even An Option?

From the moment I found out that I was pregnant with Jonas I already had such an incredible connection to the little baby growing inside of me. Everything I did whether it be trying to handle my emotions or what I ate was all for this precious little gift that I had been given. I am eternally grateful to have been blessed with the most perfect child.

Recently a friend of mine told me about how her sister is pregnant & leaning towards abortion. I have such a hard time with all of my thoughts, it breaks my heart to know that she does not feel the same way about her baby that I felt for Jonas. I hate to even think about what she is doing or not doing to baby while it tries to grow inside of her - drinking, not eating healthy, missing crucial prenatal vitamins etc. I know that this does not concern me, but the whole thing is making me so emotional.

I am literally weeping today thinking about that poor baby who may never have a chance. Especially when I know in my heart of hearts that there are deserving people out there who would give anything to have a baby. Lair & I have some friends who have been trying for years to have a baby & have been unsuccessful. It has no doubtedly been tough for them to have to stand back & watch everyone else have baby after baby. They have gone to several doctors & have reveled that adoption is the only option they have. They have just begun the process & it really is a beautiful thing.

It pains me to know that there are ungrateful, immature, egocentric young girls & women who are able to have babies & decide to throw them out as if they did not matter, as if they weren't & aren't worthy, as if they were yesterday's garbage while
good, God loving, deserving people have to wait around, turn their lives upside down, shell out every dime to their name to be able to bring a baby home.

When are people going to stop being so effing selfish & think about someone else for a change? When are people going to get that abortion is murder? Define the word however you wish, termination, induced expulsion, etc. it wont change the fact that you are killing God's design.

In weeks 1-4 alone ovulation, conception & fertilization occur, baby's gender is assigned, the neural tube forms, a foundation is set for the nervous system, thought process, senses & feeling, the heart & circulatory system begins to form - all of this occurs often before the mother even realizes she is pregnant. Call me conservative, religious, right wing, self righteous, what have you - I'll call myself aware. I am conscious of things that are moral, I refuse to walk through this life foolishly believing that abortion is any sort of option.


*photo of a baby at four weeks gestation. already 2 inches in size.
*photo of a baby @ eight weeks gestation, the heart has already been beating for about 1 month.

Year 1 Nearly Completed

It's beginning to hit me, my precious baby boy, while still precious is only 9 days away from no longer being a baby. The feeling is bittersweet, watching him grow has been one of the single most rewarding experiences of my life.

He is so small & there is so much more world for him to explore & it really is gratifying watching him learn & take everything in. I pray that I have been doing a good job, that he grows up to love the Lord & lives according to the teachings in the Bible - that's not too much to ask for, I hope.

Now that 1 year is around the corner we have a lot of stuff to work on like walking & talking & of course perfecting self feeding & being weened from his bottle. I so wish we had some help all the way out here in Ohio, my mom would know exactly what to do. Maybe her not being here is a good thing, maybe then I have the chance to do it myself.

Wish me "luck" it's clear that I am sorta just winging it here, sure I visit parenting websites 3 times a week or more, I call my parents often, I flip through the stack of books I have & I pray a lot, but one can ever be prepared enough for parenthood. Call me crazy, but I am already thinking about baby #2.